梦想的天堂

BAD? NO!! GOOD? WELCOMED!!

2009-11-18T04:51:00.000-08:00

Aih.. Moody in a sudden. Past flashed back because of one question and one comment.. Go away from my mind. There's no more space for past.. Don't try to squeeze in without my PERMISSION or APPROVAL!!! NEITHER!!

After all, I'm worried of my chemistry paper 2.. The same thing, worried in sudden. During my chemistry paper 2, i gt not enough time to think. Every questions finished in rush. Calculated wrong number of carbon and hence draw wrongly for the structure.. Luckily I realized and corrected it. Yet, due to rushing hour, I cant confirm whether there were any mistakes that I left out and did I draw the structure wrongly after correction?Hope no such things happen on me.

What the.. What's going on with my brain? Keep on thinking of bad things and memories which will not bring me happiness.. LAW OF ATTRACTION..Believe that good things will happen on me.. Everything is gonna be smooth.. I'm going to have a good start all over..

可悲的爱....

2009-10-19T21:53:00.000-07:00

爱,是什么?

爱可以很坚固,也可以很脆弱.

有些人之间的爱可以很长久,任何考验都分开不了..

但有些,你认为会坚固到海枯石烂的感情,却是那么的不堪一击…

身边发生了几个例子…

两人一起八九年了,却忽然宣告结束..

原因??? 我也很好奇…

那么多年的感情,就如此结束,多少会感到可惜…

但,冥冥注定的事,任谁也改变不了…

爱… 为什么会在这世上存在着?

爱的定义是什么?

有时,它让人幸福满满..快乐无比..

有时,它却让人伤痕累累..痛得不能复原..

为什么爱可以在无形中,控制我们的情绪?为什么爱可以在无形中操控着我们?

原以为复原的伤口,当再触碰时,又再次淌血……

原来,人们都是那么的懦弱… 都没有形状,触摸不到,看不到的”爱”影响情绪…

或许,是我们都还没学会如何去爱..才会被"爱"所伤...

永别...

2009-10-17T20:27:00.000-07:00

小表弟,永别了….

在去医院的路途上,天色忽然转黑,让人有种不安的感觉..

我正在心里为你祈祷…

不久,一封简讯传到了阿姨的电话,通知我们,你已经永远地离开了我们…

车里的气氛忽然变得很沉重..阿姨,妈妈忍不住流下了眼泪..而我,则是强忍着眼泪..

到达医院后,看到你很安详地永远沉睡..

这是我第一次看见你,也是最后一次….

看到你的那刹那,我终就忍不住我的眼泪…任由眼泪流下…

看到你小小的身躯,是那么的脆弱..难过的感觉都涌上心头..

看到阿姨用着难舍地眼神看着你,用充满爱心的手来触摸你,这一切的情景,多么的让人伤心难过..

由你出生,到今天,只有仅仅的一星期..

听阿姨说,为了让你生存下来,你小小的手已被插满了管..

对于小小的你来说,这是多么多么地痛苦啊…

你很勇敢,你真的很勇敢..大家都觉得你已很勇敢地面对了这一切…

谢谢你那么坚强地度过了这一星期,好让你的父母有了与你相处一星期的回忆..

你一路好走..找户好人家,再来到这世界….看看这世界…

下一次,一定要努力地睁开双眼,看看这世界…健健康康地活下来…

16.10.2009

We'll be Friends FOREVER.. Miss you all..

2009-10-03T01:38:00.000-07:00

"Graduation (Friends Forever)"

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down
These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of that night in June
I didn't know much of love
But it came too soon
And there was me and you
And then we got real blue
Stay at home talking on the telephone
And we would get so excitedand we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on
We remember
All the times we
Had together
And as our lives change
From whatever
We will still be
Friends Forever

So if we get the big jobs
And we make the big money
When we look back now
Will our jokes still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

La, la, la, la:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
La, la, la, la:
We will still be friends forever

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?
Can we survive it out there?
Can we make it somehow?
I guess I thought that this would never end
And suddenly it's like we're women and men
Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?
Will these memories fade when I leave this town
I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

Dinner at Salmon Steak SS/15

2009-09-22T03:55:00.000-07:00

Last week, I went Salmon Steak with my housemate for dinner.Salmon Steak!! Sounds so high class. Did I pique your interest? Haha. Actually,I did went there for more than 10 times yet I think nothing special there. lol. Maybe something wrong with me.So, I decided to write about it in my blog. The food there are not bad. Price? Reasonable. As long as you are student, before 6pm, there is promotion. One set of lunch cost 5 bucks with one ice lemon tea for free. What bout after 6pm? Promotion is still on. Yet, no more ice lemon tea for free. One set of meal still cost 5-6 bucks on average. But if you decided to choose others, such as steak, den will be 8 or 9 bucks. Consider reasonable la.. Size of the steak not small o. For me la. If compared with TM's steak size, here's larger. One plate contains spaghetti, steak and salad. Guess how much this will cost? Only 9 bucks.. cheap. It will make my tummy to appear round because I'll be so full after finishing it. Lol. Show you all few photos. Although it wont stimulate your appetite(because of the photo's colour quality), I do want to share here. ^^ And it was the first time for me in ordering drinks there.

I Miss You...

2009-09-21T08:21:00.000-07:00

Listening to a song now.. A soft melody, soft song.. The voice of the singer is sad... A sad tone... It caused me to think of you.. Missing you..Uncontrollable, my tears rolling in my eyes... I know you are very enjoy with your life now. Having trips with friends everywhere. A life full of freedom.. I'm wondering why guys can always recover from sadness much more faster than girls? Why are girls must torture themselves by thinking of the past, the fact or reality that will not change? Ironic... You were recovered from sadness much more much more faster than me. How did you achieve this? Teach me please.. Lol.

How long will I spend in forgetting you totally? I hope it will be as soon as possible. Waiting for the day to approach. The day when I will feel nothing as I see something related to you from facebook or anywhere.. I will keep asking myself from not missing you. Missing you will not be part of my life SOON. I have to learn not to miss you. I have to immune myself from sadness... I hate who I am now. The one who cannot let something goes in the way it should.. Go go go, memory.. Leave me at least now.

Take a break..

2009-09-16T21:28:00.001-07:00

Just done for my chemistry test.. Regretted to read Paper 6 yesterday.. I shouldn't spend such a long time on Paper 6 rather than Paper 4. Majority of the questions are taken from Paper 4. I was reading Paper 6 for whole day. Until 10 something at night, i realized that Paper 6 are all application chemistry. That's mean I haven touch any of the organic and inorganic chemistry after whole day reading. I'm retarded enough to realize about this fact. Lol.Yet, I think it would be ok for me. At least I can know my level of understanding without reading the questions before the exam. I'm sure the result will be "pretty" enough. Haha. Honestly, I'm worrying for my exam with my level of understanding. I'm the one who memorize notes. When come across questions which require technique of understanding and applying theory, I will die with a horror look..Who asks me born to be so straight. Don't know to think differently. Have to learn that now. Turn my brain, turn my brain.. I have to spend more time on chemistry. Gosh.. I have left out my biology for quite a long time. Sorry ya, Biology. I will read you around this few days or next week. Sayang.. ^^
Actually today I'm going for a movie with buddies de.So, I have to express my "gratitude" to H1N1. Why? Because it causes me to cancel my movie and shopping activities. My mum disagree me to go to public places where disease and viruses are widely spread. Aih~ Thought to watch some comedy. Now.... sob sob.. :(
Since I have done my chemistry test, I should give myself a good rest after stressing out for so many restless day.. Today i'm taking MC. I will watch series, read novel and anything that will relax myself. Think of them also happy already. Haha. Chill....

蕭賀碩不公平

2009-09-13T21:04:00.000-07:00

Just wanna share a song here.. Get knew about this song from a singing contest "chao ji xing guang da dao (超级星光大道 5 )"..The melody sounds nice for me.. ^^

蕭賀碩~不公平

走了那么远,发现你不在身边

独自走过了什么,自己都不了解

未来的蓝图应该有你,不该只剩叹息

只是偶尔,泪流不停

坚强的理由,只是自己骗自己

你眼中的恐惧,说什么都多余

付出的一切值不值得,永远不会有答案

只有天知道,我有多么爱你

一颗心属于一个人

在爱情里,什么算公平

爱的深,也伤得深

是不是,催眠了自己

一颗心属于我自己

爱情里,找不到公平

而当你,最后选择了逃避

我学会不公平

Chemistry

2009-09-12T03:24:00.000-07:00

Is chemistry tough?I would answer YES! So what about organic chemistry? I would like to say it's FAR MORE MORE MORE MORE TOUGH! My gosh. Who is the one who invented chemistry in this world? They are genius? Absolutely! Am I genius? NO! Yet, i have to ask myself to be genius as them. Why am i say so? Because, I have to understand what had been invented by them.. Of course not as genius as them. Why? Because I'm just understanding and applying those theory ruled by them. But, they were those who discovered those theory. What kind of brain they owned? I'm wondering..
So, now I'm on my way to understand all chemistry process. Work in progress. Be careful, explosion might occur. Lol. So many process and terms.. here we go. Halogenation, nitration, nucleophilic addition, nucleophilic substitution, electrophilic addition and substitution, acyl chloride, formation of diol.. Aiyoo~~ So many. Even reaction with the same chemical also can produce different product when the reactant is under different conditions. When the reactant is warmed, it can produce A. When it is cold, it produced B.. What the.. My brain memory not as big as giga o. How am i going to memorize all? I'm challenging myself. I'm working them out!

Countdown for A level

2009-09-10T23:24:00.000-07:00

Left 3 more weeks to go. After 3 weeks, I'm going to have my 3 weeks study weeks. Then, it's time for me to face my last external exam for A level-A2.. That's means it left only approximately 2 months for me to complete my A level course. Mid of November I'm going to say goodbye to A level and INTI college once i finish my exam.. All course mates and classmates are going to separate from each other. we will have lesser time to meet. I still can remember the scene when i was first registered in INTI, when i was fresh in INTI, how i knew new friends during orientation day, the first day of class, the first lab, the learning process with friends, the living style with my housemates and roommates. Everything past fast. Without knowledge, one and a half years is going to leave me. Time never returns to us. I'm growing everyday..Where should i go next after A level? I already have my target university. So i have to work the entry requirement. There are so many things i have to handle before get into Uni. I have to score better for this final exam, I have to take my MUET next year. I have to improve my english.Huh.. The major things that i have to handle right now is my studies progress.. Left not much time for me to prepare.. Strive hard. Work for that. Angelis, Work!! Once u get into ur dream Uni, everything in your mind are going to be real. You will get into your own way and living in ur desire life. No matter how hard right now, I have to withstand it. i can do it. Just as Yun told me. If i can do that, SUCCESS will overhead Failure~~

No idea

2009-08-08T02:36:00.000-07:00

Anyone can help me? Anyone can stop me from crying? Anyone can stop the feeling of crying in the evening and night. I felt that i am so useless. I'm crying almost everyday. I found no place to release myself. my emotion is not stable. In the morning until afternoon, I'm totally ok. As evening reach, as night has reach, my emotion is totally not ok. I felt, i felt to cry. In fact i did cry. I felt suffer to be in such situation. I want to leave this situation as soon as possible.

So many things have changed. I tried my best to make it remain as it is. Yet, i failed. So many fact i couldn't change. I miss them. I miss the moment. I miss the moment a lot a lot. The moment when i am happy all the time. The moment when i have person to care about me, to protect me. Everything changed. I should accept it. I know i should accept it. But i really need time. A long time. While waiting for the time to pass, I have a suffering life now. I'm like a fool. A fool that care too much about that.

Monday A level result is going to release soon. That's what made my emotion even more unstable. I'm worried for my result. I think i did badly for my A level exam. I don't want to re-sit for the exam.. Argh.. I'm not afford to withstand this situation anymore.. really unable. I'm tired.. Mentally abuse.. >.< God, please bless i can get a better result. I know i cant score distinction result. But at least don't let me re-sit for my As. At least bless i can achieve result which can satisfy the entry requirement for Nutrition in IMU. Guan Yin Mama, please bless me. That's the only thing i can put hope and my attention on.. Please..

Why are things around me changed? Maybe because the world is kept changing, indirectly, everything changed without my knowledge, without giving my time to retain it, without giving me some time to appreciate, without giving me some time to change the fact.............

我知道

2009-08-05T19:10:00.000-07:00

从来没想过
不能再和你签手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右.............

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

First Love

2009-07-13T19:59:00.000-07:00

First love is dangerous
only when it is also the last.

First love is a little foolish
and a lot of curiosity.

Men always want to be
a woman's first love -
women like to be
a mans last romance.

First romance,
first love,
is something
so special to all of us,
both emotionally and physically,
that it touches
our lives and
enriches them forever.

We always believe
our first love is our last,
and our last love is our first.

Woman's happiness
begins with her first love
and ends about then.

Every man is
thoroughly happy
twice in his life:
just after he
has met his first love,
and just after
he has left his last one

The magic of first love
is our ignorance
that it can never end.

First love
is a kind of vaccination
which saves a man
from catching the complaint
the second time.

Lucky is the man
who is the
first love of a woman,
but luckier is the
woman who is the
last love of a man.

To be in love
is merely to be in a state
of perceptual anaesthesia.

Love is everything it's cracked up to be.
That's why people are so cynical about it..
It really is worth fighting for,
risking everything for.
And the trouble is,
if you don't risk everything,
you risk even more.

I am a sailor,
you're my first mate
We signed on together,
we coupled our fate
Hauled up our anchor,
determined not to fail...

We only love truly once.
It is the first time
and succeeding passions
are less uncontrolled.

Transformer

2009-07-04T01:04:00.000-07:00

I was spending my first time in watching Transformer. Before this, I wasn't like to watch this movie. I thought it was a movie full of wars and all those violent scenes.I don’t have the desire to watch this movie. Even when I’m requested by my brother, I rejected. But because my aunt already bought my ticket, so I went for movie with my brother and my cousins. Since I have never watch transformer for the previous two seasons, so I was keep asking my brother about the characters of transformers and the details of this movie. Once I was got into the situation, I was impressed by the characteristics of those transformers who were sacrificed themselves in order to save the Earth, to protect the one that they love. Optimus was died when he’s putting his effort in protecting Sam. The other Primes were sacrificing themselves to hide the Matrix that will change the fate of the world, which will bring the Earth into darkness, an irreversible disaster. Felt so sad when Optimus was died. Luckily, he was being saved by Sam. Jet Fire also sacrificed himself at the very end of the story. He wants to help Optimus in fighting The Fallen. And, as everyone wishes, The Fallen died.. Haha..

I like Bumble Bee. He’s so so soooo cute. When he knew that Sam is going to University without bring him. He cried.. Haha. I like that scene so much.. CUTE~~~~ He wanted always to be with his host.. I wish I have a transformer like Bumble Bee.. He can be my very best friend. He will protect me and listen to me. At least he will loyal to me. Anyway, these are all imagined by me. >.<>

Oh ya!!! The heroin is so pretty.. She’s pretty sexy. She got a nice voice, a good body line.. Wow.. Being attracted.. Haha.. Hey, I’m not lesbian.. It’s just simply impressed by her and admire her..Hehe. That’s all my feelings after watching this movie… If you wanted something creative and high-tech movie, go for transformers in cinema.. ^^

My Life

2009-07-01T01:45:00.000-07:00

Last week i got a lot of activities.. Emm.. Went for shopping with friends, sing k with friends, played pool at AC, celebrated bufday for my little cousin and went Shogun during family days.. Wow.. lot lot activities.. I enjoy and enjoy and enjoy.. ^^ How's my life recently.. Actually is damn busy.. This week gonna prepare for a club activity.I'm helping my friend for stage backdrop. As Beau Bristow is coming to my college, journalist will be coming too.. That's why we have to put some efforts in decorating. It's a live concert for Beau Bristow.. I think probably most of you wont know who is he. Actually i know not much about him too.. If you wish to know more about him, search this web site. www.beaubristow.com.

Next thing.. I'm going to held a steamboat farewell party for my roommate without her knowledge.We're going to give her a surprise.. ^^ Hopefully everything going just nice.She got her JPA. She got medic course. A smart smart girl who i wish i could be like her.. Cannot jealous so many de lo. My fate.. >.< Before she going overseas, she'll be studying A level at KTT, Sepang. Wish her luck.. She'll be moving out from hostel on this Saturday.. I'm going to sleep alone lo.. Yet, i think i have used to it. I got my lamp lamp to accompany me and lead to my sweet sweet dreams.. But sometimes are those weird weird dreams that i can't remember once i woke up. Anyway, that's mean i can fall into sleep and have a good sleep too. Not bad ma. At least i do not need to lay on the bed and rolling over and over on the bed. Because i HATE THIS FEELING!! DON'T LIKE!!!

Now, next topic.. I had my first experience in playing pool. It was nice.. At first i found it hard to handle the stick. I did not know the correct way to hold the stick. I did not know how to hold the stick and apply force on it in order to push the ball. Should i call them as Ball? I don't know the exact name.. hehe. sorry.. For the few try, my balls are jumping on the table. haha. so embarrasing.. After that, i got knew about the technic to handle the stick.. My balls can get into the hole at last..I think got twice or thrice ba.. Haha.. Happy and satisfied.. ^^

Ok now.. How's my studies going? so far so good lo.. By the way, i got one lecturer who teaching my class for both math and stat.. when he's teaching math, his progression is very very fast.. i have no time to rest. He teaches for 2 hrs non stop.. Even wanna go to toilet also have to fast go fast back.. huh.. Fast like a rocket.. if you want to experience the feeling in the rocket, REGISTER in INTI and look for Mr. Chiam class. Haha.. Contrast, when he's teaching stat, he's quite slow.. the class is very very boring.. Make me so sleepy. I think majority of my classmate also felt sleepy. If they aren't, at least i was. haha.

Yesterday i went for badminton at USJ 19.. We booked 2 courts. We were having double player competition on two courts.. Just simply a competition between friends.. The fees for the courts are quite expensive compared to TM "Gao Zhou"..One hour 15 bucks.. luckily we are shared among 8 persons. So it's still affordable.. We played for 2 hours.. I was almost dehydrated after the game.. Even drank a lot of water still felt thirsty.. Sweat a lot. So syok~~~ Kakaka. Since everyone was enjoying in the game, no one was responsible to take pics.. sob sob.. sad.. Ok la.. I have to do my own stuff ad. Bcoz to upload this post, it spent me almost 2 hrs.. Bcoz some errors happened on blog web.. Damn!! enjoy those pics that i upload... ciaoz... Sing K

SHOGUN

Birthday Celebration

Pool at AC

感触

2009-06-28T09:10:00.000-07:00

随着Michael Jackson 的逝世, 竟突然让我感触很多. 在他去世前,我对他的了解并不多. 对我来说,我只知道他是个擅长跳舞的巨星. 我竟然在前几分钟才知道原来他结婚了. 可笑吧? 真不敢想象,他就那么突然就离开了这个世界. 听着他的歌 YOU ARE NOT ALONE,竟感伤起来. 有种想哭的冲动.

他的逝世让我觉得人真的很脆弱. 一个小小的病菌就足够把一个人带离这世界.我们都不知道下一秒会发生什么事. 或许某人就在你面前,但之后就连你想触碰他的机会都没有了.想到这里让我感到害怕. 害怕我疼爱,心爱的人离我而去,害怕我要在记忆里寻找他们的身影,他们的一切. 可以的话,真希望我爱的人,爱我的人能一直留在我身边,陪着我度过我的喜怒哀乐….

疼爱我的人及我爱的人, 我会开始学习珍惜你们… 不让我的生命及你们的生命存着遗憾~~~

I'm STUPID

2009-06-07T23:27:00.000-07:00

I just did my chemistry paper 2 today.. I did it badly.. really badly.. even a simple question, a simple calculation i also calculate wrongly. So, what word can suit fit for me.. STUPID!!! I cant accept this fact that I can do wrong for questions that were simple, that gave me bonus marks to score for my paper. How can I being so careless in exam? I cant forgive myself.. square an equation also multiply wrongly.. I got no time for this paper. I left blank for some questions. I cant imagine what my result will be.. Flying colour results? Seems getting far and far from me.. Scholarship for degree? probably no more for me.. Professional career? belongs to others.. Me? I don't know. I cant plan my future now.. I'm going to disappoint people around me. I'm going to shame myself.. If my result is bad for A level, if i cannot graduate with a better result that can fulfill the requirement of course that i want for degree, what am i going to do with? Probably spends one more year on foundation in science.. But i do not hope to take this path.. It will waste a lot of money, time and even effort that i put before. I know i'm not spending as much time as other. but at least i do put effort. I really tried my best. I cant study everyday, every minute like others. i will getting fed up with study if i'm acting like that. HATE MYSELF.. ANGELIS!!!!
I wanna continue with my degree after my A level.. I wanna involve myself in degree as soon as possible. Dreaming of U life eagerly.. Please God.. Please bless me. I won't request for the best result. But at least wont shame myself, enable me to take the career and the path that I dream everyday, every minute, every second....

EXAM

2009-05-02T03:16:00.000-07:00

Exam is coming soon. Feeling stress.. Why am I so stress? This is because my dad paid for my fees, my exam fees.. My dad even paid a hardship.. Aih.. I hope I can really do well in this coming exam.. Everything seems doesn’t go right. I don’t know why m I having this kind of feeling. Although there’s someone telling me everything is going fine, I can’t remove this feeling from my heart. I need the right person, right action to help me remove this feeling. I hate this kind of feeling. It has been surrounded me for few days.. I scared I’ll depress someday. Hah. PLEASE HELP ME!!!

My parents asked me not to be stressed in facing exam. Just try my best. Yet, I’m stress. I’m scared. I cried when I’m alone. Arghhh… After this exam, I have to prepare for another exam that is coming in half year time. Then, MUET.. Will MUET and A2 at the same time? If yes, what should I do? So many obstacles this year.. This year isn’t my year.. Everything has obstacle. Why are obstacles looking around for me a? I’m looking for luck, GOOD LUCK!! Not BAD LUCK!!

叶子的离去,是风的诱惑,还是树的不挽留?

2009-04-06T02:56:00.000-07:00

叶子与树的爱情故事

"叶子的离开，是风的追求还是树的不挽留？记得从前与树一起走过的春天,风总是轻柔的吹在叶子和树身上,叶子知道,风喜欢他,但他想和树一起;
夏天来了,叶子和树总是在太阳下懒懒地晒着睡午觉,那时叶子觉得,能这样陪在树的身边,是多麽的幸福;雨水落下来了,叶子总会挺身,为了树,擋住雨水的冲撞,因为叶子想为树做些事情,他不想只是吸收树的养份而活,叶子知道,他一定要坚强,要不怕雨水的冲撞,要经得起风的诱惑,叶子一定要坚强,叶子一定要坚强,坚强地陪在树的身边;
秋天来了,雨水少了,叶子不用经常面对雨水了,他知道他已经战胜了雨水.雨水少了,树能吸收的水份越来越少了,叶子只能更努力地吸收阳光,他要为了树,更加努力,努力;
叶子和树一起,长出了花儿,花儿展开她美丽的颜色,花儿为了吸引蜜蜂,吸引蝴蝶,花儿展开她美丽的颜色,花知道他的美丽,就是为了成全果实的成长;
但,树越来越虚弱了,树开始开花儿了,为了花,树要分给花更多的水,叶子分的水少了,但他却要吸收更多的阳光.为了花儿,为了能结果;
树,越来越虚弱了,这时,风来了,他比春天更加强势,比夏天更霸道,他知道叶子的坚强,所以,风更用力地吹,用力地吹.
树越来越虚弱了,叶子知道,他是时候要离开了,叶子对树说:我喜欢上风了,我要离开你.树无声的放开了叶子,叶子随着风飘着,飘着,这是叶子一辈子唯一一次离开树,唯一一次骗了树,风很开心,把叶子向上吹,风想让叶子飘得更高,风想让叶子飘得更高,风想让叶子快乐,因为,风,就只会且只能把叶子向上吹;
" 叶子是第一次从这么高的地方看着树,叶子,第一次能看到树的全身,叶子随着风,围绕着树转,叶子想把树看得更清楚,叶子想把树看得更清楚,叶子想把树的正个样子永远的记住;
叶子终于记住树了,树,对于叶子来说,比叶子大得多,坚强的多,到这时,叶子才知道,其实叶子一直的坚强,都是因为有树的支撑,叶子才能这么的坚强,这么的坚强!叶子终于知道了树的心意,其实树他一直都是默默的照顾着叶子,叶子终于知道了,并且,叶子看到了花,他们共同的女儿,还有果实,他们共同的孩子, 花是那么的美丽, 果实,是那么的纯朴; 叶子义无反顾的向树的根冲去,叶子要下半辈子跟着树,叶子已经和树走过春天,叶子已经和树走过夏天,叶子也即将要于树走完这个秋天,叶子知道,花儿会随着叶子,一起到树的根边,陪着叶子,叶子和花一起陪着树走完秋天,叶子和花会一起长眠,陪着树走完秋天;
叶子知道,果实也会掉落,钻进泥土,果实,会生根,果实,会发芽,总有一天,果实也会长成树一样,能够破土,顶天,立地,并会像树一样,保护他的叶子,开花,结果......
虽然,叶子和花,永远都不会再看到那一天,但叶子和花都知道,那一天,终将来临.

Just to release myself

2009-03-19T08:52:00.000-07:00

My condition is spreading rather than recovering. I’m so suffering with what I’m experience now. It’s almost is my “Best Friend” that stay with me for more than ten years++. BUT, I dislike this “best friend” to be with me anymore. How many efforts should I do to overcome this? When only I can recover completely? You all wouldn’t know how suffering it is, how painful it is, how many plaster I have been used in every single week. Sometimes, I’m scare to look at that. I scare people looking at that. I’ll lose my confident as I think about it. I’m jealous others girl can have such a good condition. I want that also. Yet…. When others people look at that, sure they will think that is disgusting. Sob sob…

There’re a lot of foods I cannot eat. I have to sacrifice my favourite foods. How long I have to maintain until I can recover? I should have more and more determination than other people have. I know that. Just, my soul and my body are suffering. It’s torturing. I’m even torturing people surrounding me. People who love and care for me. My parents look for a better remedy for me. They will pay even more attention to any info related to my case. They even spend more on me. Dear’s parents also concern about me. They recommended some doctor for me and always ask for my condition to see whether I’m getting better. Dear’s worry about my condition. He has to be more careful when stay with me in order not to make my wound pain.

I know it wouldn’t recover in a short time. Yet I hope at least it wouldn’t spread anymore. Then only will increase the probability to recover as soon as possible.

Huh… nothing else. Just want to express my feeling in somewhere else. So writing a blog is a good way for me to release myself rather than telling my family. This will only make them even worry about me. Aih… that’s all for this post……………………….

感情的维系. ^^

2009-03-17T02:54:00.000-07:00

他們結婚已有兩年了。

他愛好文學，經常寫文章放上網絡，可是從來沒有人去看。

他也會攝影，他們結婚的照片就是他自己拍的。

他很愛她。

她也是。

她脾氣很大，經常「欺負」他，是個「辛辣小霸王」。

他脾氣不大，經常讓她，是個「廿四孝老公」。

今天，她又「任性」了。

她﹕「你為什麼不肯替我朋友的婚禮當攝影師？她答應價錢照付。」

他﹕「那一天我剛好沒時間。」

她﹕「哼！」

他﹕「嗯？」

她﹕「什麼沒時間？你少寫幾篇鬼都不看的小說，不就行了。」

他﹕「我相信總有一天，會有人欣賞的。」

她﹕「哼！不管怎樣，你一定要替她拍婚禮照。」

他﹕「不行。」

她﹕「就只一次。」

他﹕「一次也不行。」

談判失敗了。於是，她下了最後通牒﹕

「三天之內，必須答應，否則-- 」

第一天。

她「封鎖」了廚房、浴室、電腦、雪櫃、電視機、音嚮組合，

只有雙人床沒被「封鎖」，以示「寬宏大量」。

當然，她自己也要睡。

他不在乎，因為他口袋還有點零錢。

第二天。

她施以突襲，搜去他口袋的一切，並警告﹕

「瞻敢找「外援」的話，一切後果自負。」

他慌了。

晚上。

床上。

他求饒，希望她結束這種非常狀態。

她不睬他。決心不「軟」不能被他的花言巧語「迷惑」。

除非答應條件。

第三天。

晚上。

床上。

他靠在床上，頭朝東。

她靠在床上，頭朝南。

他﹕「我們好好談談。」

她﹕「不答應條件，不談。」

他﹕「我談的很重要。」

她不吭聲。

他﹕「我們離婚吧。」

她頭皮一炸，摸摸耳朵。

他﹕「我認識一個女孩。」

她氣極了，想爬起來與他打一場。

但她又忍住了，要讓他把話說完，

不能沒有「度量」，不過，她覺得眼睛有点湿了.

他從胸口摸出一張照片。

她猜出他是從貼身襯衫口袋掏出來的，

因為前天只有這件襯衫沒有

搜索過，是看走了眼。

他﹕「這個女孩很漂亮很溫柔」

她淚水出來了。

他﹕「而且性格也挺好。」

她很傷心，因為他把別的女孩子的照片放在「貼心」的口袋。

他﹕「她說和我結婚後全力支持我寫作。」

她很嫉妒，因為當初她也對他說過這話。

他﹕「這個女孩是真心愛我的。」

她想爬起來朝他吼﹕「我不也是？」

他﹕「因此，我想她是不會逼我幹我不願意幹的事的。」

她在考慮，但她氣難消。

他﹕「你要看看我替她拍的照片嗎？」

她﹕「?」

他把那張照片湊到她眼前。

她火氣很大，一掌打開他的手，

再在他瞼上留下鮮紅的五指印。

他嘆了口氣。

她出了口氣。

他把照片放回口袋。

她把手縮進被窩。

他把燈熄了，睡了。

她把燈開了，起來。

他睡著了。

她失眠了。

她後悔了，不該對他這樣。

她又哭了，想了很多。

她要把他喊醒，要和他親親熱熱地談談。

她絕不再逼他了。

她盯住他胸口。

她要看看那個女孩究竟是什麼樣子 ?

她摸出照片。

她又好氣又好笑，又想哭又想笑。

那是她自己的「標準照」。

是他替她拍的。

她俯下身來，在他的臉上親了一下。

他笑了。原來他也沒有睡著。

人與人相處感情有时淡有时浓

只要不要忘记最初的相识情景

感情才能長久

戀人、朋友皆是

Apologise....

2009-02-19T00:09:00.000-08:00

Result for biology mock exam is released. I got a quite bad result. My class have 2 person got As in their Biology. I did study for this exam. I did prepare for this exam. But… everytime you ask for my result, I’ll feel sorry. I feel so ashamed to answer you what is my marks. My heart so pain when I tell you the marks. I imagine what your impression to me is as I’m getting such result that wouldn’t make you all satisfied. When I thought you will be unhappy or something other bad feeling on me, my heart gets even painful. I feel wanna cry.. I know I have the RESPONSIBILITY to u. Not only you, there are four more persons that I feel I have the responsibility too, of course my parents is among the 4 persons. The other 2 persons, you should know who is them.. I know I have to score higher in order to make you all proud. I really want that. I’m SO SO SO SO jealous my friends or course mate who can do well in their studies. I do ask them the way they study. But, they just say they study like that. Yet, I still can’t get the way that they study. Maybe they have a more brilliant brain than I am. Yet me, I got a dumb and dumb and also a dumb brain. I wanted to be them.. really. I really want to be them, as brilliant as them. Face exam easily, face exam with confident, get flying colours result that will make you all proud, get more opportunity with good result. I want that.. I DO!!! Aih… sorry. I’m really sorry to you all. I hope you all can understand me. I’m apologizing to YOU, my parents and a pair of parents who care for me, worry for my studies. I have nothing else to say to you all. I felt ashamed with myself.. Sorry..

Problems arise!!!

2009-02-17T21:05:00.000-08:00

Aih.. Sounds too bad.. Start my new post with sigh. But what can I do. I’m really in a bad mood. As time flies, I found that I can’t really handle my A level very well.. Why m I become like this. I studied what I should. I face the exam. But, I can’t achieve my target. A level actually is something like SPM. Syllabus is almost the same. That’s mean what I am studying now is actually prerequisite knowledge. Just Chemistry got a lot of different. If like this, why I can’t score well in my Biology? Am I becoming dumb and dumb? Am I’m no more suitable to study? I found that I’m always live in a stress and tension situation. Once I think about my studies, I find no answer for myself. I even think about giving up for studies. But it is impossible. If I’m not study, what else can I do? If you want to get a job, the requirement is few piece of papers ( Certificate ).The higher the grade, the valuable you are. If I don’t have the important paper, I’m nothing!! I’m nobody!!!!

Happy Belated Valentine~~

2009-02-14T23:11:00.000-08:00

Wow.. that's quite a long time i didn't update my blog. haha. busy of all kind of things such as homework, exam, studies. Huh.. such a busy life. Of course i know i couldn’t avoid from experiencing this kind of life since external exam is coming soon. A lot of preparations have to be done. So worry.. Can i do well and score well? Bless me so..I hope i will be work harder than before. Angelis!! Do not ever do something that is unnecessary. Concentrate on studies.. Do not watch movie always la!! But then, can i control myself? haha.

Well, valentine is a past tense now. I think sure every couple has a memorable valentine.. There's no exception for me too. Haha. Before this, my friends all busy preparing their valentine's gift to give their lover a surprise. I also DIY something for my dear. He was so surprise. Haha.. One of my male friends is so rich. He spent almost 1k something in preparing valentine gift. Huh.. So expensive. But of course not just one gift costs 1k la. Is sum of few gifts.

Well.. Gonna do my revision. Test and exam waiting for me. Arghhh… Happy belated valentine.. ^^

Happy Chinese New Year "牛"转乾坤

2009-01-21T22:34:00.000-08:00

Wao.. Chinese New Year is around the corner. Hooray~~ Can receive many AngPao liao. keke. Of cause we have done some preparation to celebrate this festival. To make ourselves have sense of CNY, my housemates have done something special. Show you the pics later.
Besides, CCS of my college has organized one events "Moo Moo Fiesta" to celebrate CNY. There was a lot of performances related to chinese culture on that night. e.g. Wu Shu, Chinese Yoyo, Cheer leading, chinese 24-drum,Hip-Hop dance(Mustang Crew, Xiao Tian Crew) etc. The grand price of the MMF is a LG Ice-Cream phone. It was won by a S1 A level guy. So JEALOUS!!! I think everyone sure so hate him as he grabbed their chances of winning the phone.I sooooooo hope that the phone is PINK in colour so that he will look sissy. I think PINK colour suit him soooo much. SO MUCH!LOL.. ( This phrase Written by O One, idea of O Three. Bcoz they wanted the phone sooooo MUCH. SO MUCH)I was the helper for that event. During the progression of MMF, it even rained for few times. Since we were holding that event outdoor, we have to request all audience to move into Concourse hall. As a helper, I and others helper have to carry chairs under rain into Concourse hall. When rain is stopped, we again have to carry all chairs to basketball court where the event hold. Although very tired, I enjoyed myself on that night and experienced something new. The events was held successfully under co-operation of helpers and smooth organization of committee. Yeah!!!

That's what my housemates done. Nice writing.

My housemates
Wanying (O One) and Bee Shuang (U$ Dollar)

That's our house unit plat.

Emm.. What to say about this? One word to describe. BRAVO~~

MOO MOO FIESTA

Say Cheers.. Took Pic before going for MMF

Ang3lis n O One

(left to right)
O One, O Two And O Three.. Nickname. haha.
BS got many nicknames.. hehe.

U$ Dollar @ O One..

Ready to go for MMF.
Shirts looks a bit big. Of cause la, not my shirt ma. hehe.

Such a BIG crowd.. Shows going to start soon.

Stage of MMF

Can you all see the dancing lion"wu shi'?
"wu shi" for opening ceremony.

Fashion shows..

Fashion shows

fashion shows

Local Artist.. Zhu Hao Ren. 朱豪仁

My helper tag..

平息瘟疫的三生汤-河婆擂茶

2009-01-20T19:19:00.000-08:00

I went for a try for this "ho po lui cha". I prefer to eat the rice without the soup. The rice taste good. However, I dislike the soup. Haha. Yet, I finished all the soup since it is good for health. Here we go..

That's the picture that I captured from menu..

Looking at the menu. Thinking what to eat..

My 1st Nail Art

2009-01-13T04:06:00.000-08:00

Just want to show you all my first nail art. Although simple, but looks nice. I like it very much.. Thanks Wan Ying.. ^^ My classmate even asked me am I using a fake nail. Yet, it's really my own nails.Purposely keep it long for nail art. Haha.. The pictures might be a bit blur. Sorry for the low quality pictures.

Before...Just polish the nails.

After Decorating..
Oops.. My ring took pic also.. Haha.

Nail Arts~~~~

父母的恩情

2009-01-11T23:59:00.000-08:00

经过这几天,我真的深深体会到父母是多么地为儿女着想.只要是子女想要的,都会想尽办法把子女梦寐以求的东西呈现在面前. 即使他们是多么地辛苦.

父母往往都是有苦自己受,也不想让子女知道,不想让子女受到一点点的折磨或委屈.如果子女被欺负,父母总是站在最前线保护子女. 身为女儿的我,总是在父母细心的呵护下长大,让我觉得很窝心.

对于父母对我的付出,关怀,是我不能用一言一语来表达的.您们的恩情,我会记在心里.在我有能力的情况下,一定会让您们有更好的生活,享受人生.为了这个目标,我会努里迈进.不会辜负您们对我的期望.

最后一句,爸,妈,我爱您们!!!希望您们能常陪在我身边.

Snow Flake Taiwanese Desserts

2009-01-06T17:02:00.001-08:00

Just want to introduce some Taiwanese desserts today. I went for this Taiwanese desserts with my housemate as one of my friends is working there. This is a new open cafe. Price? Emm.. i think still reasonable ba. The highest price of desserts selling there is RM 5.50. Majority are RM3++ to RM4++. So, do u think reasonable? By the way, i has a enjoyable day and memorable moment there. Everyone of us enjoy ourselves there. My friend who works there as server even try to mix some new drinks for us to try for FREE!! Haha. That's our special service. About the tatste of the food? Let me show u some picture. U judge by yourselves la. ^^ Here we go~~

That's what we ordered on that day. Add some creamer that provided to make the taste better.Looks Yummy~~~

This is what i ordered. those black in color is what we usually eat when drinking shake milk "Zhen Zhu" and "Liang Fen". Yummy~~~

This is what my Friend, Wan Ying ordered. Looks almost the same as mine. But actually not. Haha.

This is "tou fu hua" ordered by my roommate, Hun Khim. Looks like soup. But actually taste a bit bitter and sweet. Like herb soup.

Wan Ying...

Ang3lis...

Hun Khim...

Bee Shuang was giving a cute pose. Haha. ^^

Ang3lis was giving comment about the FREE drinks. looks pro ya? Hehe.

FREE drinks... Left hand side is original taste. Right hand side is drinks that being mix.

Wow, Hun Khim able to finish all..

Same thing to Wan Ying. Finished all..

Ang3lis? Huh.. Cannot finish. Too sweet.. That's the best level Ang3lis able to do. left a bit in the bowl.Paiseh~~

Asked for 2 mineral water as the desserts are really so sweet.

This is our bill.. RM 15.30.

Start from left to right.
Ang3lis, Hun Khim, Wan Ying, Bee Shuang.
Oops, our background writing "Without it". But, Without what? Actually is " Don't back home without it". In fact, I think I cant live in hostel happily without you gIrLs.^^

FRI3NDSHIPS 4EVER~~~~ LoV3 You gIrlS~~
Muuackkkkks..

New Life

2009-01-05T00:49:00.000-08:00

School life starts again. This is my 3rd semester. My chemistry lecturer has changed to a more experience lecturer. Today a bad news came to me. My classmate, Poh Lyn had quit A level in INTI. She shiftd to Help university for Foundation in business. S4 cannot have any memorable time with her in INTI anymore. So sad. Miss you a lot, Poh Lyn~~ time we were together was so short. sigh~~ today i was being chosen to be Chemistry class rep. In fact, I do not wish to be selected because there are a lot of stuffs have to handle. I just want to concentrate on my studies. this semester are even harder then previous 2 sem. i have to prepare for my As exam. So so so nervous.
Yesterday i was alone in hostel room. So scare and lonely. Wait!!! Scare? Yaya. Is because i dislike the feeling to be alone at night. Luckily, "Honey" accompanied me and chat with me. And "monkey" that given by him has accompanied me for whole night. Then only i fall into a sweet sleep until unwilling to wake up this morning. Hehe.. Ok la. Till here i write la. Have to study lo. ^^

Gratitude

2008-12-29T06:43:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I went for an annual dinner at Rawang. There were a lot of foods being served there. Yummy~~~ It was a buffet and all of us were self-service. I was unable to take some photo of those delicious foods as there were a lot of people waiting for their turn to take some foods. Impossible for me to stuck there just to take photo. ^^

After I take my foods, I went to sit with my family and relatives. We were chit chatting there happily. My little cousin sister was sat beside me. She is a very cute girl. She was so active until accidentally poured some ABC ( Ais Kacang ) on my skirt. Luckily I was able to escape that. Good Kungfu ya? I guess so. Haha. Then, I went inside the office with all my cousins. My cousin sister taught me a lot about computer functioning by using office’s com. I learnt a lot under her teaching. She taught me patiently as I’m a computer idiot. Haha. I want to express my gratitude here. Thanks ya, Sister.. ^^

Now, let me tell u what had happened to me today. I sat for almost 6 hours continuously. My buttock was so pain. Huh.. Why was I sitting for such a long time continuously? Erm.. let it be a mystery. Kaka. And I want to thank someone who waited for me patiently at home. I think he was quite angry that I being delayed the time for several times. And he can just wait and wait and wait. Luckily he didn’t scold me for that. Thanks ya, “Honey”. You are always treats me with heart, love and care. ^^

Erm. I should thank one uncle also. He treated me, my brother and my mum for dinner. He has treated us for a couple of times. Feel Paiseh. Hehe. Thanks ya, Uncle. J Oops, I realized something now. Seems like i’m writing this post to thank people around me, right? Haha. Aiya, don’t care la. The main point is, I really express my gratitude sincerely for three of you .. ^^