感触

随着Michael Jackson 的逝世, 竟突然让我感触很多. 在他去世前,我对他的了解并不多. 对我来说,我只知道他是个擅长跳舞的巨星. 我竟然在前几分钟才知道原来他结婚了. 可笑吧? 真不敢想象,他就那么突然就离开了这个世界. 听着他的歌 YOU ARE NOT ALONE,竟感伤起来. 有种想哭的冲动.

他的逝世让我觉得人真的很脆弱. 一个小小的病菌就足够把一个人带离这世界.我们都不知道下一秒会发生什么事. 或许某人就在你面前,但之后就连你想触碰他的机会都没有了.想到这里让我感到害怕. 害怕我疼爱,心爱的人离我而去,害怕我要在记忆里寻找 他们的身影,他们的一切. 可以的话,真希望我爱的人,爱我的人能一直留在我身边,陪着我度过我的喜怒哀乐….

疼爱我的人及我爱的人, 我会开始学习珍惜你们… 不让我的生命及你们的生命存着遗憾~~~

I'm STUPID

I just did my chemistry paper 2 today.. I did it badly.. really badly.. even a simple question, a simple calculation i also calculate wrongly. So, what word can suit fit for me.. STUPID!!! I cant accept this fact that I can do wrong for questions that were simple, that gave me bonus marks to score for my paper. How can I being so careless in exam? I cant forgive myself.. square an equation also multiply wrongly.. I got no time for this paper. I left blank for some questions. I cant imagine what my result will be.. Flying colour results? Seems getting far and far from me.. Scholarship for degree? probably no more for me.. Professional career? belongs to others.. Me? I don't know. I cant plan my future now.. I'm going to disappoint people around me. I'm going to shame myself.. If my result is bad for A level, if i cannot graduate with a better result that can fulfill the requirement of course that i want for degree, what am i going to do with? Probably spends one more year on foundation in science.. But i do not hope to take this path.. It will waste a lot of money, time and even effort that i put before. I know i'm not spending as much time as other. but at least i do put effort. I really tried my best. I cant study everyday, every minute like others. i will getting fed up with study if i'm acting like that. HATE MYSELF.. ANGELIS!!!!
I wanna continue with my degree after my A level.. I wanna involve myself in degree as soon as possible. Dreaming of U life eagerly.. Please God.. Please bless me. I won't request for the best result. But at least wont shame myself, enable me to take the career and the path that I dream everyday, every minute, every second....