Saturday, August 8, 2009

No idea

Anyone can help me? Anyone can stop me from crying? Anyone can stop the feeling of crying in the evening and night. I felt that i am so useless. I'm crying almost everyday. I found no place to release myself. my emotion is not stable. In the morning until afternoon, I'm totally ok. As evening reach, as night has reach, my emotion is totally not ok. I felt, i felt to cry. In fact i did cry. I felt suffer to be in such situation. I want to leave this situation as soon as possible.

So many things have changed. I tried my best to make it remain as it is. Yet, i failed. So many fact i couldn't change. I miss them. I miss the moment. I miss the moment a lot a lot. The moment when i am happy all the time. The moment when i have person to care about me, to protect me. Everything changed. I should accept it. I know i should accept it. But i really need time. A long time. While waiting for the time to pass, I have a suffering life now. I'm like a fool. A fool that care too much about that.

Monday A level result is going to release soon. That's what made my emotion even more unstable. I'm worried for my result. I think i did badly for my A level exam. I don't want to re-sit for the exam.. Argh.. I'm not afford to withstand this situation anymore.. really unable. I'm tired.. Mentally abuse.. >.< God, please bless i can get a better result. I know i cant score distinction result. But at least don't let me re-sit for my As. At least bless i can achieve result which can satisfy the entry requirement for Nutrition in IMU. Guan Yin Mama, please bless me. That's the only thing i can put hope and my attention on.. Please..

Why are things around me changed? Maybe because the world is kept changing, indirectly, everything changed without my knowledge, without giving my time to retain it, without giving me some time to appreciate, without giving me some time to change the fact.............

2 comments:

  1. Hmmmm..Everyone of us also can help you..The problem is, do you let us to help you?? I go back cyber later. Take care ya =)

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  2. Don't cry, my dear. Be strong.

    If you think you are alone in this time of difficulties. You are wrong. So wrong indeed.

    What i want to say is that, there are many that still care about you. Look around, you will know you are so being loved.
    Your family, your friends.

    The God too, is there for you. HE will wipe dry your tears and beside you every moment.
    HE loves you and will never leave you.

    You are never alone.
    You have ALL of US.
    Love you.

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