Apologise....

Result for biology mock exam is released. I got a quite bad result. My class have 2 person got As in their Biology. I did study for this exam. I did prepare for this exam. But… everytime you ask for my result, I’ll feel sorry. I feel so ashamed to answer you what is my marks. My heart so pain when I tell you the marks. I imagine what your impression to me is as I’m getting such result that wouldn’t make you all satisfied. When I thought you will be unhappy or something other bad feeling on me, my heart gets even painful. I feel wanna cry.. I know I have the RESPONSIBILITY to u. Not only you, there are four more persons that I feel I have the responsibility too, of course my parents is among the 4 persons. The other 2 persons, you should know who is them.. I know I have to score higher in order to make you all proud. I really want that. I’m SO SO SO SO jealous my friends or course mate who can do well in their studies. I do ask them the way they study. But, they just say they study like that. Yet, I still can’t get the way that they study. Maybe they have a more brilliant brain than I am. Yet me, I got a dumb and dumb and also a dumb brain. I wanted to be them.. really. I really want to be them, as brilliant as them. Face exam easily, face exam with confident, get flying colours result that will make you all proud, get more opportunity with good result. I want that.. I DO!!! Aih… sorry. I’m really sorry to you all. I hope you all can understand me. I’m apologizing to YOU, my parents and a pair of parents who care for me, worry for my studies. I have nothing else to say to you all. I felt ashamed with myself.. Sorry..

Problems arise!!!

Aih.. Sounds too bad.. Start my new post with sigh. But what can I do. I’m really in a bad mood. As time flies, I found that I can’t really handle my A level very well.. Why m I become like this. I studied what I should. I face the exam. But, I can’t achieve my target. A level actually is something like SPM. Syllabus is almost the same. That’s mean what I am studying now is actually prerequisite knowledge. Just Chemistry got a lot of different. If like this, why I can’t score well in my Biology? Am I becoming dumb and dumb? Am I’m no more suitable to study? I found that I’m always live in a stress and tension situation. Once I think about my studies, I find no answer for myself. I even think about giving up for studies. But it is impossible. If I’m not study, what else can I do? If you want to get a job, the requirement is few piece of papers ( Certificate ).The higher the grade, the valuable you are. If I don’t have the important paper, I’m nothing!! I’m nobody!!!!

Happy Belated Valentine~~

Wow.. that's quite a long time i didn't update my blog. haha. busy of all kind of things such as homework, exam, studies. Huh.. such a busy life. Of course i know i couldn’t avoid from experiencing this kind of life since external exam is coming soon. A lot of preparations have to be done. So worry.. Can i do well and score well? Bless me so..I hope i will be work harder than before. Angelis!! Do not ever do something that is unnecessary. Concentrate on studies.. Do not watch movie always la!! But then, can i control myself? haha.

Well, valentine is a past tense now. I think sure every couple has a memorable valentine.. There's no exception for me too. Haha. Before this, my friends all busy preparing their valentine's gift to give their lover a surprise. I also DIY something for my dear. He was so surprise. Haha.. One of my male friends is so rich. He spent almost 1k something in preparing valentine gift. Huh.. So expensive. But of course not just one gift costs 1k la. Is sum of few gifts.

Well.. Gonna do my revision. Test and exam waiting for me. Arghhh… Happy belated valentine.. ^^