Apologise....

Result for biology mock exam is released. I got a quite bad result. My class have 2 person got As in their Biology. I did study for this exam. I did prepare for this exam. But… everytime you ask for my result, I’ll feel sorry. I feel so ashamed to answer you what is my marks. My heart so pain when I tell you the marks. I imagine what your impression to me is as I’m getting such result that wouldn’t make you all satisfied. When I thought you will be unhappy or something other bad feeling on me, my heart gets even painful. I feel wanna cry.. I know I have the RESPONSIBILITY to u. Not only you, there are four more persons that I feel I have the responsibility too, of course my parents is among the 4 persons. The other 2 persons, you should know who is them.. I know I have to score higher in order to make you all proud. I really want that. I’m SO SO SO SO jealous my friends or course mate who can do well in their studies. I do ask them the way they study. But, they just say they study like that. Yet, I still can’t get the way that they study. Maybe they have a more brilliant brain than I am. Yet me, I got a dumb and dumb and also a dumb brain. I wanted to be them.. really. I really want to be them, as brilliant as them. Face exam easily, face exam with confident, get flying colours result that will make you all proud, get more opportunity with good result. I want that.. I DO!!! Aih… sorry. I’m really sorry to you all. I hope you all can understand me. I’m apologizing to YOU, my parents and a pair of parents who care for me, worry for my studies. I have nothing else to say to you all. I felt ashamed with myself.. Sorry..