Take a break..

Just done for my chemistry test.. Regretted to read Paper 6 yesterday.. I shouldn't spend such a long time on Paper 6 rather than Paper 4. Majority of the questions are taken from Paper 4. I was reading Paper 6 for whole day. Until 10 something at night, i realized that Paper 6 are all application chemistry. That's mean I haven touch any of the organic and inorganic chemistry after whole day reading. I'm retarded enough to realize about this fact. Lol.Yet, I think it would be ok for me. At least I can know my level of understanding without reading the questions before the exam. I'm sure the result will be "pretty" enough. Haha. Honestly, I'm worrying for my exam with my level of understanding. I'm the one who memorize notes. When come across questions which require technique of understanding and applying theory, I will die with a horror look..Who asks me born to be so straight. Don't know to think differently. Have to learn that now. Turn my brain, turn my brain.. I have to spend more time on chemistry. Gosh.. I have left out my biology for quite a long time. Sorry ya, Biology. I will read you around this few days or next week. Sayang.. ^^
Actually today I'm going for a movie with buddies de.So, I have to express my "gratitude" to H1N1. Why? Because it causes me to cancel my movie and shopping activities. My mum disagree me to go to public places where disease and viruses are widely spread. Aih~ Thought to watch some comedy. Now.... sob sob.. :(
Since I have done my chemistry test, I should give myself a good rest after stressing out for so many restless day.. Today i'm taking MC. I will watch series, read novel and anything that will relax myself. Think of them also happy already. Haha. Chill....

蕭賀碩 不公平

Just wanna share a song here.. Get knew about this song from a singing contest "chao ji xing guang da dao (超级星光大道 5 )"..The melody sounds nice for me.. ^^

蕭賀碩~不公平

走了那么远,发现你不在身边

独自走过了什么,自己都不了解

未来的蓝图应该有你,不该只剩叹息

只是偶尔,泪流不停

坚强的理由,只是自己骗自己

你眼中的恐惧,说什么都多余

付出的一切值不值得,永远不会有答案

只有天知道,我有多么爱你

一颗心属于一个人

在爱情里,什么算公平

爱的深,也伤得深

是不是,催眠了自己

一颗心属于我自己

爱情里,找不到公平

而当你,最后选择了逃避

我学会不公平

Chemistry

Is chemistry tough?I would answer YES! So what about organic chemistry? I would like to say it's FAR MORE MORE MORE MORE TOUGH! My gosh. Who is the one who invented chemistry in this world? They are genius? Absolutely! Am I genius? NO! Yet, i have to ask myself to be genius as them. Why am i say so? Because, I have to understand what had been invented by them.. Of course not as genius as them. Why? Because I'm just understanding and applying those theory ruled by them. But, they were those who discovered those theory. What kind of brain they owned? I'm wondering..
So, now I'm on my way to understand all chemistry process. Work in progress. Be careful, explosion might occur. Lol. So many process and terms.. here we go. Halogenation, nitration, nucleophilic addition, nucleophilic substitution, electrophilic addition and substitution, acyl chloride, formation of diol.. Aiyoo~~ So many. Even reaction with the same chemical also can produce different product when the reactant is under different conditions. When the reactant is warmed, it can produce A. When it is cold, it produced B.. What the.. My brain memory not as big as giga o. How am i going to memorize all? I'm challenging myself. I'm working them out!

Countdown for A level

Left 3 more weeks to go. After 3 weeks, I'm going to have my 3 weeks study weeks. Then, it's time for me to face my last external exam for A level-A2.. That's means it left only approximately 2 months for me to complete my A level course. Mid of November I'm going to say goodbye to A level and INTI college once i finish my exam.. All course mates and classmates are going to separate from each other. we will have lesser time to meet. I still can remember the scene when i was first registered in INTI, when i was fresh in INTI, how i knew new friends during orientation day, the first day of class, the first lab, the learning process with friends, the living style with my housemates and roommates. Everything past fast. Without knowledge, one and a half years is going to leave me. Time never returns to us. I'm growing everyday..Where should i go next after A level? I already have my target university. So i have to work the entry requirement. There are so many things i have to handle before get into Uni. I have to score better for this final exam, I have to take my MUET next year. I have to improve my english.Huh.. The major things that i have to handle right now is my studies progress.. Left not much time for me to prepare.. Strive hard. Work for that. Angelis, Work!! Once u get into ur dream Uni, everything in your mind are going to be real. You will get into your own way and living in ur desire life. No matter how hard right now, I have to withstand it. i can do it. Just as Yun told me. If i can do that, SUCCESS will overhead Failure~~

No idea

Anyone can help me? Anyone can stop me from crying? Anyone can stop the feeling of crying in the evening and night. I felt that i am so useless. I'm crying almost everyday. I found no place to release myself. my emotion is not stable. In the morning until afternoon, I'm totally ok. As evening reach, as night has reach, my emotion is totally not ok. I felt, i felt to cry. In fact i did cry. I felt suffer to be in such situation. I want to leave this situation as soon as possible.

So many things have changed. I tried my best to make it remain as it is. Yet, i failed. So many fact i couldn't change. I miss them. I miss the moment. I miss the moment a lot a lot. The moment when i am happy all the time. The moment when i have person to care about me, to protect me. Everything changed. I should accept it. I know i should accept it. But i really need time. A long time. While waiting for the time to pass, I have a suffering life now. I'm like a fool. A fool that care too much about that.

Monday A level result is going to release soon. That's what made my emotion even more unstable. I'm worried for my result. I think i did badly for my A level exam. I don't want to re-sit for the exam.. Argh.. I'm not afford to withstand this situation anymore.. really unable. I'm tired.. Mentally abuse.. >.< God, please bless i can get a better result. I know i cant score distinction result. But at least don't let me re-sit for my As. At least bless i can achieve result which can satisfy the entry requirement for Nutrition in IMU. Guan Yin Mama, please bless me. That's the only thing i can put hope and my attention on.. Please..

Why are things around me changed? Maybe because the world is kept changing, indirectly, everything changed without my knowledge, without giving my time to retain it, without giving me some time to appreciate, without giving me some time to change the fact.............

我知道

从来没想过
不能再和你签手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过骄纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过


曾经完整幸福的梦 在脑海里头
我多希望你 还在我左右.............


我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
答应你 我会好好过
不让 这些眼泪白流

First Love

First love is dangerous
only when it is also the last.

First love is a little foolish
and a lot of curiosity.

Men always want to be
a woman's first love -
women like to be
a mans last romance.

First romance,
first love,
is something
so special to all of us,
both emotionally and physically,
that it touches
our lives and
enriches them forever.

We always believe
our first love is our last,
and our last love is our first.

Woman's happiness
begins with her first love
and ends about then.

Every man is
thoroughly happy
twice in his life:
just after he
has met his first love,
and just after
he has left his last one

The magic of first love
is our ignorance
that it can never end.

First love
is a kind of vaccination
which saves a man
from catching the complaint
the second time.

Lucky is the man
who is the
first love of a woman,
but luckier is the
woman who is the
last love of a man.

To be in love
is merely to be in a state
of perceptual anaesthesia.

Love is everything it's cracked up to be.
That's why people are so cynical about it..
It really is worth fighting for,
risking everything for.
And the trouble is,
if you don't risk everything,
you risk even more.

I am a sailor,
you're my first mate
We signed on together,
we coupled our fate
Hauled up our anchor,
determined not to fail...

We only love truly once.
It is the first time
and succeeding passions
are less uncontrolled.